Just Too Much

这几天很累，除了因为工作忙，还有睡觉的时候也不轻松，连续几天梦到我娶了Jess，然后种种生活琐事。

前几天，Rebecca问我喜欢什么样的女人。我说我没有什么固定的类型，然后顿了一下，继续说，不过我的确有爱上最好的朋友的倾向。

这种爱情很危险，收场不像最初想象的那么美好的单纯。那么地爱过Joy，又那么地让她感到受伤，我想同样的错误不会再犯两次了吧。爱还是会继续爱的，能够强忍着不爱的也就称不上是爱了。只要不再去想未来就好，在爱中毫无期待，只等未来静静到来。就像我问Jess，我们会离婚吗？她说，到时候再看吧，如果那时候我们看着对方，想，婚姻还不是我们想的那样绝望呀，我们就继续走下去。我说，这样最好。

我们还没有决定究竟要怎样做，最近都没有讨论。移民法案倒是看了不少，很琐碎，要等很久，但是可行。但正是因为未决，所以未来无限可能。我甚至想到，给她一个传统的中式婚礼吧，要什么样的钻戒呢，到哪里去旅行……睡觉的时候也在想，所以累坏了。娶她是我曾经的幻想，现在离那个幻想这么近，大脑超负荷，just too much……

Crush by David Archuleta

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http://mp3.baidu.com/m?f=3&rf=idx&tn=baidump3&ct=134217728&lf=&rn=&word=crush&lm=-1&oq=crush&rsp=0

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It's just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I try and try to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Has it ever cross your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it's a chance we've gotta take
Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I try and try to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
Cause I try and try to walk away
But I know this crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain't goin' away-ay-ay-ay-ayy